Thoughts

So, today is my daughter's next to the last test that she will be taking for nursing. She needs to pass this one and the final next Tuesday, then she will reach her dream of being a nurse. She's had this dream since she was 2 yrs. old, and seeing it come true is more than any parent can even realize the emotions I'm feeling!

Elizabeth and Landen will be moving the week after next to their new home in South Hill, VA. Yes, the heart will ache, but I hate to say, I'm looking forward to becoming "me" again. I love my kids, and my grandson, but it's been a long road and with my daughter being 24 now, and plenty old enough to be on her own, and support her son. She has accepted a job at the hospital in South Hill, and Landen is enrolled in a new school/preK/daycare. He's looking forward to the move, but we know he's got no idea that he won't be seeing us everyday like he's been used to his entire 4 years. It will be a transition for both of them, and I'm hoping a smooth one.

My 22 yr old son is still at home, working full time, pays his own bills, does his own laundry, but he doesn't drive. He's got something that keeps him from driving, and I wish I could figure it out. Kind of an OCD thing where he knows that he can't just focus on his driving, he has to be sure to watch everything around him, as well as his driving, and that kind of freaks him out. He's been the kid that won't ride amusement park rides due to not having control of the situation, so I'm thinking that is the same with driving. I sure hope we can get him behind the wheel soon, but at the same time, with all the accidents his cousins have had, I'm really glad that he's not driving! ha ha!

My life will be taking a dramatic turn when Elizabeth and Landen move, and I will be on the road to becoming Rene again. After being Mom for 24 years, and Grandma for 4 (and I know I'll forever be both), it will be nice to see Rene come back, and do things that I want to do for me, and not feel I need to be doing for others! Still going to the gym. Last 2 weeks have been slow for me. Week before last I couldn't go at all due to pulling a muscle in my back, and then last week, I went, but only 3 days instead of 5. This week will be 5 days!! I've got to get back to it. I'm the only one that can lose this weight by Christmas, so off I go!!!

Those are just my thoughts for the day......hope everyone has a great week!!!

Weighing In

Wow, so this is the first blog in a while. I've had my 44th birthday, a great mini reunion with 4 friends from high school, and I've lost 12 pounds in the 6 weeks I've been going to my gym, and working with a personal trainer. His name is Thomas...really nice guy. I guess with me seeing myself all the time, I don't see changes happening in my body, but I do hear that I am, and with the scale telling me that progress is happening, I'm feeling even more determined to continue with my program, and lose as close to 50 pounds by Christmas. If I go over....total bonus!!!

The reunion....talk about wonderful! Rob, Kent, & Robin I've seen over the years at class reunions, but this was the first time I've seen Bobby since high school! He hasn't changed at all....well, we've all done that aging thing, and some of us are more cushiony, and have less hair, but the person is still the same! It was really good for me to make the trip to PA alone, and be able to be with my friends and talk about old times, and not have to worry about my Pat not having a clue as to what we're talking about. It was just really nice to have that time to myself with those people!!

I'm off to grocery shop now with the grandson! Not sure how that will go, but we'll take the challenge and run with it! ha ha! I meet with Thomas tonight for my hour of strength training, then the weekend will start! It's a long one for me, and I love it! I've got so much to do in this house it's not even funny!!!

Happy Labor Day to you all, and please be safe!!!

I don't get it!

Ok, I've been working all day in and outside of the house. Cutting grass, doing laundry, cleaning bathrooms, etc. My boyfriend went to the airport to pick up his brother who flew in from Texas, then they were going to the sportsbar to watch the first half the the Steeler game. I get a call from their father, wanting to know why I wasn't at the bar with them?? Are you kidding me??? I don't care of exhibition games. They don't count towards regular season, and I just didn't feel like going anywhere. I wanted to just sit on my ass and rest! Also, the guys don't see each other that much, so I'm giving them time to themselves! Sheesh! I do NOT need to be up my boyfriend's ass every second of the day, or any second for that matter. I do NOT have to do anything that I don't want to do! I'll be 44 yrs old next Saturday, and I'll be damned if I am about to cower to others. I am going to help their parents move to a smaller house tomorrow, and I'm bracing myself for "Let the guys move that", or "That's too much for you to do without help!" Pat's (my b/f) brothers are not the heavy moving type of guys. They are lazy actually, and I know I can do more than they can in any given day, not that I have to prove that to anyone, but they are the old fashioned type, and a woman should only do the cleaning, cooking, toilet scrubbing...you get my drift! I'm just hoping that I don't get too offended and just go off on someone! Oh well, just had to vent! I know I've posted something similar in the past, but this is just one of the things that I can't tolerate. I'm able to do a lot of things that some men wouldn't even begin to do. Lord help me tomorrow!!

Weighing in....

So, tonight is another night with my personal trainer. This will be the beginning of my 4th week with Thomas. I've had a couple of weeks with just 2 sessions, so I don't feel much difference, but I'm told I look like I'm losing weight. Sure, you're just saying that, right? I wonder.... are they just being nice, and making me stay on the right track, or are they serious. I don't see a change, but my eyes have never looked at me the same way other people have. I am the first to be really critical of my looks, weight, etc. I really am not happy with any of it, and for those that don't know me, there's so many reasons why! I'm hoping that as I lose weight, I'll change my tune about me! It's been 44 years of me feeling this way, and I know I need to change.

Betrayal

I'm kind of sad today! I have reason to believe that a very dear friend of mine, who I've known for almost 20 yrs. has lied to me! Why is this a big deal?? Because we're friends and friends don't do that to each other. Regardless of what he said he didn't do, and it turns out that he did, I don't think it would've mattered to me had he just been truthful. There was no reason for him to lie to me like he's been lying to everyone else. That's the kind of friend I am. I only want the truth, and I don't think that's a huge request! I never thought he'd do this, and that's where the hurt lies right now! I feel like there are other things that he may be lying about now, so what can I believe? His wife is the kind to turn a story around for her to come out the innocent one, but I always thought he was man enough to accept responsibility for his actions, and not try to lie his way out of it. So, how does one know when they are being deceived? When do you question them? I actually did that this morning in an email, so I'm waiting for a response. I know he's lying. I've got proof. You might think this man is more than my friend, but it's never been more than a friendship, but one that I've treasured. My heart hurts!

Happy last week is over!

Wow, first week back after vacations sucks to start with, but Tuesday, July 7th, we took a lightning strike that fried my oven and 2 TV's! Incredible and the cable is still not fixed. They are coming tonight between 5pm-8pm. I hope they can fix whatever the issue is, but it was caused by that terrible storm! It would've been ok when the storm first hit, but the lightning blew the main breaker in the house, and the one for the oven and hot water heater. Luckily, there was no damage to the hot water heater, and the breaker switches were easy to fix, but dang it, it got the oven. We replaced the oven on Friday of last week, and have homeowner's insurance started. UGH! I can't wait to get this behind us!

I'm going to be starting at the fitness center today. Joined on Friday afternoon, and signed up for some personal trainer sessions, just to get me going. If I have someone pushing me, then I know it will help me! I'm working on losing 50 pounds or more, and I was told that if I'm dedicated, and really want this, it will be 6-7 months before I see that kind of weight loss, which seems like no time when I've been trying to do this for a few years now! It's time for me, and I'm going to make this effort work!

Have a great week!!! Hope to hear from you soon!

The family unit

Here's the family on the last day of our week long vacation! Me, top step, pink shirt, next to Mom and Daddy! Just wanted to share!

Rene xoxo

Outer Banks Vacation

Vacation with the family is over, but I don't know why there's always got to be so much drama! My family can be so dysfunctional. I think that if I was as miserable as my sister, Julie, I'd be close to jumping off a bridge, but instead, she screams at everyone, or just alienates herself. DRAMA SUCKS!

Being with the family was really nice. It's been a long time since all 4 girls and our parents went on a family vacation, and adding our own families was really cool. The weather was perfect, and we had a really good time! Hoping to do it again next year.

I'm doing all the catch up stuff in the house today. Did the laundry while on vacation, since the house had a washer and dryer, but there's always that stuff that is waiting to be done when you get home! I need another week just to get settled, and do all the extra crap!

I've learned that my 17 yr. old nephew is pretty much a whore......met up with some girls at the beach, equally the whores, and "messed around". My over 21 nieces and nephews (along with my own 2 kids) can sure put away the beer and those frosty, fruity beverages. Oh well, we knew where they were and they were not a danger to anyone, and they had a really good time together!

Off I go to the chores......

Vacation countdown!!

Ok, so we've got a week till we go on vacation. I'm more than ready! Just need to figure out how the hell we're going to get all the stuff into my van! It'll be ok....trying not to stress! Yeah right! Me not stress...there's a joke!

I haven't posted since last weekend. I had to go to the dr. this week, for a terrible pain I've been dealing with in my right hand, and I'm told it's tendonitis, and I have to go back this afternoon for an xray. It has been hurting all week, but it's not bad today. Doesn't it figure! They won't see anything on the xray, then as soon as I am done and gone from the dr. office, it will flair up again. My luck for sure!

I just cleaned out my van. Traveling with a child sure does tear up a car. Well, my 23 & 22 yr olds aren't the tidiest either! In my car anyway. I totally threw out just about everything inside my van, and all that's left is to vacuum, but I really don't feel like that right now. Gotta run some errands in a bit, and need to stop sweating from the work I just did! I hate being menopausal!

Guess that's it. I am very boring for the most part! Have a great weekend! Happy Vacation to you YankeeBob!!!

The Man's Job?

Ok, so why is it that there are those few household tasks totally considered the "man's job?" When I'm asked why my boyfriend doesn't grill, I tell them that I love to cook and love to use the grill. It's not like he can't, but it's just something I do for my family! And the grass cutting.....do you even realize how much soul searching, mind clearing, time to yourself you get when you cut grass.....and some exercise! Now, while I have no problem doing the garbage, he can have that! ha ha! I get it all together and he takes it to the dump.

Most people don't know that I was married for nearly 13 years, and yes, most of the tasks listed above were designated as Greg's. That even included the bills/checkbook! When you are forced into the life as the head of family as I was, you learn quickly that these tasks are now your's and you step up and do them......you have no other choice!

When I hear, "why are you grilling, or why are you cutting grass", I get pretty offended, and just give them a direct answer, rude sometimes, but I can't help it! Yes, I love being a woman, love being treated like one, etc.

Just needed to get that off my chest!! I am woman!!! ha ha

My Friday!!

Well, today is my Friday, and I've got a 3 day weekend ahead of me. I love Thursdays. It's not only my Friday, but it's my payday too! I love getting paid every week! Sure does make things nice. Would be nice to get more in my paycheck, but I can't complain. Love my job, my boss, and the hours rock! Not too many have a 3 day weekend every week, and if a holiday falls on a Monday, I'm down for a 4 day weekend! Woo hooo!!

Not sure what I'll get into this weekend. Landen, my grandson, is at his father's this weekend, then Elizabeth, my 23 year old daughter will be going to the town where Landen is, and will attend a wedding that Landen is in, then she will be going to Raleigh N.C. for the night to see her friend.

Steven, my 22 yr. old son will be working all weekend. He works a lot of hours at Dollar General, but seems to enjoy his job, and I know the customers there like him a lot! I did a good job raising this one! He's very polite, and the old ladies love that! ha ha! I wish I could get him to get a driver's license! Don't ask!!!! UGH!

Pat, the boyfriend is going to his Dad's on Sunday. I was invited, but I opted out! I will have most of Sunday to myself, and the mood I've been in lately could really use a day of rest and time for just me!

I'll get all the housework done tomorrow, as normal for a Friday. I love being able to do that, and again, with no interuptions for the peanut gallery that live in the house! Love my family, but I love time for me! Even if it's doing laundry, vacuumming, mopping, etc!!

Anyway, I guess it's time to just do the veg thing again. I do need to do dishes, but that can be done later. Right now I don't want to do anything! Man I'm in a rut!!!

Till next time!

I'm new to this!

Hello! This is the very first blog here, and I'm clueless as to what I want to write! Guess it really doesn't matter, just trying to get this started.

Today was kind of busy at work. It's always busier for the dentist than me, but I had to do the insurance claims, deal with idiot phone calls from people that obviously have no idea how to take care of their teeth, and just the normal day happenings!

Came home, got dinner ready, cleaned up some, but I get tired of doing the same shit every day, and let someone else finish cleaning! Just didn't feel like it tonight!

Now it's 9pm-ish, and I'm just sitting here typing, and listening to the sound of silence, only to be interupted by the tapping on the keyboard! Kind of nice to be alone, and erase everything from your mind! I could get used to this!!!

Ok, so I'm done for now, gonna get comfy clothes on, and veg until bed time!!!

Night! :)